What should a person who loves a small penis do not enjoy playing with?

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I am a senior student at a university and my lover is a police officer.

We’ve been together for 2 years and you’re very good to me and very good to my family. I was born in 98, my lover is 90 and we love each other. Both families know and introduced each other. We’re 8 years older than each other, so your thinking is more mature and I’m less tired because every time you argue, you endure it. The police but you’re not promiscuous. The only thing that has been bothering me for the past 2 years is that my lover has a small bird (penis is small). Every time I have sex, I count for 20 seconds and he ejaculates and his cock can no longer erect. I suck my cock, my lover takes his hand to shake the bottle but it still can’t come up ;(((, after that he said that I went to school and he stayed at home faithfully and waited for me not to go around with anyone, so after a long time having sex with my lover I couldn’t control it. It’s like erectile dysfunction. First year. I love you, it seems like you don’t understand sex very well so you don’t pay attention. Then I joked that you have erectile dysfunction. I took you to the doctor and got treatment but he refused to go, everyone 😞 after having sex for less than 1 minute, I clicked exactly once, and the next time it didn’t work.

I confide that if this happens when we get married and have sex like this, we won’t be happy. I took him for treatment but he didn’t listen to me even though I know men have high self-esteem😭😭😭😭
I’m so bored 😤😤😤. My need is high so I always masturbate before sleeping.

Many times I lie and think that the two of us are about to get married but we don’t know if we will have children or if we will be happy together. I’m afraid I won’t be able to handle it, I’m young and I’m old.
Everyone loves my lover, including my parents, but this is the only thing that no one knows, I feel so miserable huhuhu. During the 2 years of our relationship, you also gave me 1 million each month like that, so in my head I thought that if I left you, I would feel so ungrateful, and if I didn’t leave you, would I be miserable?
Can anyone advise me on whether I should love him and marry him??? I’ve been thinking a lot lately.